So Far

i'm into my third week of college life. i love it. there is nothing i would rather be doing than getting out and doing things i would never do in reality. i still feel like it's not quite real. i skipped my senior year of high school: supposedly the best time of my life. sometimes i feel like i'm missing out on something, but then something wonderful happens here, and i know i made the right choice. i love being on my own ( sort of ) but i adore the fact that i'm close enough to home that i can go home when needed. i absolutly love how much my room mates care and i am happy with them all.
Jade is my actual room mate and she is one of the most beautiful girls i have ever met. i am a little bit envious of her. i say a little bit, but i mean a lot. she cares about life and what is happening to the people around her. she is always willing to help and to listen to what you have to say. she has already helped me a lot.
Katie is the first room mate i met and i love her personality and how she always has a way to have fun. i really enjoy being around her. she is a beautiful girl and she seems to have fun no matter what she is doing. she seems to really care about what you have to say and makes you feel worth listening to.
Mariela is Katie's room mate (they are both sophmores) and her personality always makes me laugh. the way she views the world makes me feel like the charisma i always thought i had is nothing. she makes everyone laugh, like i used to. she always knows what to say and how to say it in a way that makes everyone want to be around her and listen to what she has to say.
Whitney is one of the funnest people to be around. she is always happy to have people around and always seems excited to see you when you walk through the door. she seems to look pretty no matter what she is doing or wearing. she has a way with people, that makes them like her that makes me envious of her.
Ashley has a way of viewing the world through God's eyes. she seems to be able to see everything in a beautiful way. being around her makes me feel inadequate as a person and makes me want to try harder to be who i know my Heavenly Father wants me to be. i have a lot of respect for her.
and then there's me. i'm an extra. i'm not cute and little, i'm no fun to be around because i suck the happiness out of life. i don't smile and i make life harder for others. ... but, these girls are willing to be around me anyway. they make me smile.

I'm so happy to be here in Ephraim, Utah going to Snow College. I'm still trying.